Ed Sheeran Had Desires to Not Survive Following Friends Jamal Edwards and Shane Warne
Ed Sheeran has opened up to Rolling Stone magazine about his depression after the deaths of his friends, SBTV founder Jamal Edwards and cricketer Shane Warne, in 2022. The star admitted that he had been dealing with depression throughout his life and felt the feelings resurface last year.
He shared that it felt like he was under the waves, drowning and couldn't get out of the negative mindset. However, Ed felt embarrassed by these thoughts, especially as a parent to two girls.
Especially as a father, I feel really embarrassed about it," the 32-year-old said. "It's a selfish thing, saying that you don't want to live any more.
Ed Sheeran credited his wife, Cherry Seaborn, for motivating him to get assistance.
The singer said he comes from a place where people don't typically speak about their feelings, adding that getting therapy in England is sometimes seen as unusual. Nonetheless, he believes it is essential to have someone to talk to and not feel guilty about venting.
Despite his privileged background, Ed stressed that help is not a quick fix. It needs to be managed over time.
Edwards' sudden passing from a cocaine and alcohol-related heart attack in February 2022 deeply impacted Sheeran, causing him to give up taking drugs he had picked up in his twenties.
Recalling an incident at a festival where he found himself observing all his friends doing it, the singer said, “It just turned into a habit. I would do it once a week, then once a day, then twice a day, even without drinking alcohol. It just became a bad vibe.”
“Out of respect for Jamal’s memory, I would never ever go near it again,” he added.
Shortly after the passing of Edwards, Sheeran's wife received a diagnosis of a tumour which could not be removed until the birth of their second daughter, Jupiter. Sheeran expressed his feelings of helplessness, saying, "There's nothing you can do about it." Seaborn eventually had a successful operation in June 2022, and Sheeran performed at Wembley Stadium on the same day.
The emotional impact of the events that occurred in Ed Sheeran's life is made clear in a trailer for his forthcoming Disney+ documentary, The Sum Of It All. In the clip, the star is seen crying on stage as he confronts the loss of his friend, Edwards, as well as the health condition of his fiancée, Seaborn.
Seaborn comments on the powerful moment, saying, “I’ve never seen him cry on stage. He hasn’t had the time to process and be at peace with his thoughts.”
Sheeran has to battle his grief and his lawsuit simultaneously, a difficult feat for anyone. The trailer provides a glimpse into the weight of the experience and the star's unwavering strength in that emotional time.
Ed Sheeran has previously revealed the inspiration behind his new album, Subtract, which he completely rewrote. Whilst the project was initially intended to be a collection of acoustic songs recorded over a decade, he chose to use songwriting to process his emotions in the face of grief and hope. Aaron Dessner from The National, who has co-produced Taylor Swift's Folklore and Evermore, supported Sheeran in showcasing a more vulnerable and elemental side to his music.
Ed Sheeran has revealed that he wrote his chart-topping third album in just nine days, after receiving instrumental tracks from collaborator Aaron Dessner.
The singer-songwriter, who had worked with Dessner previously when crafting tracks for Taylor Swift, said he would use the instrumentals to write the songs on planes, cars and other forms of transport.
Speaking of the process, Sheeran said: "And then it got done. And that was the record. It was all very, very, very fast."
The Grammy-winning star also let slip of a second album with Dessner, which has yet to be given an exact release date.
Maluma has opened up about his musical future plans, in an interview with Rolling Stone. He said that he has an album called 7DJ coming up, and it will be the last in a series of seven albums, each marked with a different character or symbol. He also announced a collaborative album with reggaeton star J Balvin, plus upcoming music with Pharrell, Shakira, David Guetta and Justin Bieber.
In addition, the artist mentioned that he has five more albums in mind, which will fall into another category of symbols. He plans to work on this series on and off for the rest of his life, with the intention of adding songs as time passes. After his death, he intends to have it published as part of his will.